Stop, Look, and Listen

I can't believe I am going to be 50 in the next couple of weeks. It seemed like only yesterday that I was in high school. As we all experience, time goes by so quickly and so many things that we want to do, or put off until tomorrow, never seem to ever happen or get done. I am over the hump of life and want to stop and decide, what do I want to accomplish with the days God has left for me? This is especially true when it comes to my children. I remember when I had Makayla, I wanted to be the best mom, do so many things with her and each of my other 3 children. There were so many days I was busy and thought or said I would do it tomorrow and now they are grown and I never got them done. If one dwells on those things that we never did, it is easy for Satan to take hold and make me feel guilty. The "I should have, could haves,' etc., can drag me down and make me feel like a failure as a parent. I have to remember that life is a jurney and cannot be planned at all times. Yet, with the time I have left with my 2 youngest, I am trying to take more time to do things with them (when they will let me), trying to create memories and not just getting my list of things done for the day. When in the midst of raising children (especially as a single parent), working, cleaning, being a taxi, etc. etc..... there never seems to be an end to the things that need done. I must remember to "Stop" doing what "I" think needs done, "Look" around and see what I can do with and for others, and "Listen" to what God and my children want to say to me. If I am still enough, I will then be able to hear.